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they might say hi.

and i might say hey.

but you don't have to worry, about what they say.

'cause they got nothin' on you baby.

nothing on you baby.

:)

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but i know things will get better. I'm so over caring about my dark under eye circles right now . i just want those marks.

walking

we're going to get there.

no matter how daunting.

and if we stumble along the way, we'll haul each other up,

wipe each other's tears and keep on walking.

once in a while, we'll look back. but only as a reminder of how far we've come, never to consider walking back.

this sucks.

life just keeps getting worse..
just when you think you've hit it pretty low.
i tell myself things are going to start looking up soon.
just when you think "it's ok, i'll get through this, it'll pass"

i lost my train pass again.
not my first one
but my replacement one..
within three days of having it issued.

i'm praying that someone will be kind enough to return it to the school or the station.

i want to scream.

ruined my day.
couldnt do any english and exams are coming up
but its ok
im going to wake up at 6 tmr
and im going to go run 3km, to clear my head and release all this pent up stress
things are going to get better!!! :)

xx
kt

had a disagreement

it's been a while.

I had a disagreement with my mum, and as always it never really works out.

I'm not angry at her

I just wish she would trust me to make my own decisions, and the right ones at that.

I know i'm far from perfect, and I make A LOT of stupid choices. But i really don't think 4 hours of my sunday would make that much of a difference to my studies.

I can't blame her. She never went to church, and she was never Christian, and never met the people i've met there who are in all honesty some of the nicest people i believe i will ever get to meet.

i really wanted to make Chruch a regular thing.

a weekly thing.

I wish she would have listened.

I would have told her that going to church gives rythym to my life. more than just study every day, 7 days a week. I would have said, im not as strong as you mum. sometimes I can't do it alone like you have.

but all i could do was stand there like an idiot and cry. shake my head and tell her that she didn't understand.

I don't blame her. How can I? she's my mother and I owe absolutely everything to her.

someone told me that you really don't have the right to answer back to your parents, even if you know they're wrong, because they owe you nothing. and you owe them everything that you have to this day.

It's true. No matter how much i dislike it. and no matter how unfair i think it makes me feel, it's true

So I'm going to listen to my mum. I don't think i'll be going to church for a while. I'm going to study my hardest for the remianing eight months. And when I get what they expect from me. I'll pick my life up where i last left off.

it made me think of the first time that i realised my parents weren't perfect.

sometimes i wish i could crawl back under the blankets of my childhood and hide in my naivety and ignorance.

some things are just easier if you don't understand.

katie.

17th

the best way to celebrate something is with those you love :)

guys, thankyou for making my birthday so special.

don't you just hate those days when nothing works out?

those days when you wake up and you know from that feeling of dread and weariness that today is not going to be your day.

8: 12 am: realised i lost my train pass which was issued three days ago. and two of those days were during the weekend.

8:30 am : contact ripped. had to throw it away.

8:42: asked mum if she'd seen my train pass, got told reprimanded for being a complete airhead.

8:43: completely lost my apetite. toast is left in the toaster

8:55:. got in the car. late again. told off by dad for always carring stuff in my hands and not putting it in my bag. leads to the fact that i don't have an appropriate school bag. which leads to the fact that i should study hard this year and not worry about looking good.

9:00: ravenous in chemistry first period, so i eat my lunch. no food for the rest of the day.

4:30 : terrible tutoring lesson. i hate mathematical induction of inequalities.

7:00: house is out of electricity. mum goes to work. i turn the electricity back on outside.

8:15: no hot water, cold shower. ):

8:30: taking out contacts. brand new contact rips.

8:40: broke down in front of Tina.

what a crappy day.

but you know what that means right?

tomorrow i'm getting a good day, beacuse i've pretty much had my share of crappiness for this entire week.

xx

kt